Longing

A month ago, if you had told me that I would have been over the fact that my ex pissed me off enough to order a paternity test a few days before my daughter's birthday, I would have said that I would have held ground and stood firm on my decision and not taken her until the courts said so.

But every day that passed and I was unable to see Liliana in my life hurt a little more. I had been in her life for almost the entirely of her first year on this Earth. While I did ask for a DNA test, I did so to make sure that if I was going to support her, that she was mine. I could never deny that child because she is a splitting image of me, but on the off chance my ex lied to me, I wanted to be 100% sure. Not only that, but if I had waited until the courts, I would have never been served my custody papers and found out that my ex wanted full custody with no visitations with me. I found out later she did that because I denied the baby. I didn't deny her, I just wanted to make sure she was mine. Big difference.

I tried to be the bigger man and work something out with my ex, but she wouldn't budge. She told me that it wasn't a good idea, so I took her court to work out an agreement. The main reason I didn't take the baby over the last month was because I was afraid that after one more argument, I would get a cop at my door requesting that I return the baby because my ex claimed that I had kidnapped her. Which would be impossible, because I wouldn't be able to take the baby, all her essentials, and her clothes without my ex there.

So, that culminated into today when the court date was set. We went in and I wanted things to go back to normal. I would resume my two overnights a week and return Lily on the third morning. My ex thought that the baby was too clingy to her and that she might not take well to coming back into my life after a month. Needless to say, we sat in court for six hours to have a judge claim that we would ease Lily back into my life with "supervised" visits with my ex or her mom to make sure that the baby was comfortable with me to take on overnights again.

Now, I am not one to brag... Oh wait, yes I am. Needless to say, I went to see the baby today and was slightly nervous that she would not remember who I was and shy away from me. My fears were extinguished the minute Lily set eyes on me at the park for the first time in a month. She gave me the biggest smile she can put on that face, waved at me, and ran right at me. She thought it would be funny to veer at the last minute, but I snatched her up and hugged her tight and gave her a big kiss. Ease her back into my life? It's like I never left.

Unfortunately I have the biggest test of my patience in my life tomorrow and next week. I have to hang out with Lily with my ex or her mom around to make sure Lily is alright. But after today, I find that pointless. But I also know that if I am going to fix my relationship with Lily and be able to communicate with my ex again about the baby, I need to follow the courts for now and deal with it. In three weeks, I get the baby on my normal days and everything will be back to normal. Hopefully for good. Hopefully, I only have to talk with my ex on those days if needed.

Now, I have a belated one year old party to plan for my little one. I guess it will be a one-year-old party mixed with my 25th birthday. What a way to celebrate my birthday than with a birthday party for my little one. Nothing special really, just to say that I am sorry that missed your birthday, but I felt that having eyes bore holes in the back of my head because everyone hates me would not have been my idea of a fun time.

Anyway, that is all for now. I will post again later!

Banks: An Adventure to Hell

I have definitely posted enough online and told everyone in real life that I fucking hate banks with a blinding passion. Most of the major branches love to find ways to fuck you over and get some extra money in their pockets. It's not like that they don't get enough money from their interest on loans and mortgages.

Now why do I hate banks so much? Overdraft fees. I am pissed whenever I get them and usually it is not my fault. It is the way they like to fuck around with my money in my account.

Take for example the most recent example and see if this makes sense. I checked my account this morning to see that my Best Buy geek squad protections for my phones are on hold for tomorrow. This puts my available balance into the negative, but my current balance isn't affected. So it is saying that I have -33 available, but 6 current (which is what I had in there).

I was planning on going to the bank anyway yesterday to put $100 in the bank for my car insurance which comes out on the 26th every month as well. So, to add everything up, I have $140 in insurance coming out later today.

Now, the bank has done this to me in the past and I know it's going to happen again. This is what they do, ready for this?

Now the Best Buy insurances come out as $10 charges and there are usually two per month. Now last month, they didn't take it out because for some reason they said my card was giving them an issue. So, they are taking out four this month. They were put on hold on the 25th.

Now later today, my car insurance is going to come out and all four Best Buy insurances are going to come out officially. Now, if I didn't get the money in on time yesterday, which I hope I did, they are going to claim that the four charges were taken out of my account, put my account into overdraft, then they will take the car insurance which will put my account further into overdraft. This stemming from the fact that those four charges were put on hold for the 26th.

Even better? They are going to put the four charges back into my account AND CHARGE ME AGAIN FOR THOSE SAME FOUR FUCKING CHARGES. Thus, putting my account further into overdraft and charging me an overdraft FOR EACH FUCKING CHARGE.

Thus, if I didn't get the money into my account on time, I will more than likely see anywhere from four to eight overdraft charges for $37 each. How does that make sense for a charge that wasn't due to come out until the 26th?

Even better? If I hadn't checked my account (because I wasn't planning on paying Best Buy this month because they were having issues with my card, so I figured I wouldn't get charged anymore) yesterday morning, I would have just deposited $100 for my car insurance and may have not avoided this entire mess. Now, I just have to sit and wait to see if they fuck me over.

The best part though is this: I have my court date for the baby on Wednesday. If I find all those overdraft fees in my account tomorrow, it is going to royally piss me off and I am going to end up going into court Wednesday pissy. Yes, I am going to call customer service Tuesday to have them fix it, but I might go into court uncertain of how fucked I really am.

That's all. My fun with banks never ends. Also, you know I am really pissed when I say "fuck" a lot in this blog. I try to avoid swearing too much here because I want to keep this blog semi-professional. Oh well. Have fun everyone.

Impressed

Now, we all know that I am a huge sports fan. What you may not know is that I am not one to sit and watch a lot of games. Even my favorite sport baseball, I don't watch a lot of games throughout the year. It is a mix of the fact that I work a job and can't watch them all that way and because I usually find myself playing a video game instead. With the addition of Liliana in my life, that also takes away from my sports viewing time as well. But, if you have met my daughter and find out how freaking fun and funny she is, I think you would choose her over the sports too. Trust me though, she will know the rules of baseball (and the other major sports) when she grows up and she will be given the choice of whether she wants to watch or not. But that's my duty as the dad.

While I don't watch all the games throughout the year, I do make it a note to make sure I know what's going on in the world of sports. I know that the Celtics and Bruins are in the playoffs and I know that the Celtics just moved on to the second round. How do I know? Well, I do pay attention to this wonderful device known as the internet, the other device known as my cell phone, and the wonderful gadget in my car known as a radio.

This definitely isn't the same as actually sitting and watching the Bruins score that goal in double OT and watch the frenzy as they go up 3-2 in their series. Nor is it the same to just see that the Celtics just manhandled the Knicks in their series and swept the ever-loving hell out of them. But, at least when I go to work the next day, I know what the fuck is going on.

Now the Sox, I definitely pay attention to the most. Baseball is my number 1 sport, so naturally they fall on my radar more times than the other two. So, it was to my utmost surprise to see that Daisuke Matsusaka absolutely annihilated the Angels the other night, with 8 innings of 1-hit ball. Not only that, but he has allowed no runs and two hits in his last two starts. This, after being hammered by the Rays three starts ago. Sports radio was not kind to him after that Rays loss and wanted him to go away. Now, all you haters can suck it.

Now while it was a surprise to see Daisuke succeed (because he really hasn't done too much while he has been here), it was a surprise to see Lackey start off weak. He had one full year in the AL East to work out the jitters of being in Boston, so surely he would start out alright? Well, he has been the second question mark in the rotation. He got a win against the Yankees, but still allowed 6 runs in the game. Apparently he was bad enough to skip a turn in the rotation as well. He pitched fine in Oakland, but was just the victim of a bad offense at the time. So, it was somewhat of a surprise to see him pitch a shutout in back to back days with Daisuke. That, my friends, will definitely shut up those whining about the rotation.

Even better is that the lineup seems to be finally putting it together. They scored 12 runs in the last two games, and Carl Crawford hit a HR. So, it is definitely starting to look up.

Now all we need is for the Bruins to kill Montreal Tuesday and move closer to their first Stanley Cup in almost four decades. Go Bruins!

I guess that is all. Two more days til court. Wish me luck!